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The best thing about going on
Grindr in your childhood town

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was one-by-one seeing who from
secondary school turned out gay.

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Who went from sixth form to uni

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and came back loving cock?

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And it's always that
boy who called you a fag

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for coming last in cross country

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who's now desperately sending
pictures of his arsehole

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in a knitted jockstrap.

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Andrew Shuman!

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You cannot seriously be on Grindr
when I am in this room?

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No, my school bully just messaged
me this!

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Ugh, Jack! Sorry.

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I've had a shitty enough night
as it is.

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I just don't know what I should
reply with.

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We were in the same set
for Maths once

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and he tried to Tipp-Ex my teeth.

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Have you heard from him?

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No.

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Hello, mate.

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She can still hear us.

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You can talk to her.

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Ah.

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SHE WHIMPERS

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Hello, Nan.

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SHE MOANS FAINTLY

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You all right?

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She's had a rough night.

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I'm really not trying
to be mean but you really stink.

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Really? Really.

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Yeah, all right,
Romeo, you're in a care home.

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It's force of habit, innit? Hey!

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Now it's gone everywhere.

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It's going to smell like
a school disco.

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Did you sleep here last night?

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Yeah, on the chair.

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I can do the same tonight if you
want a decent kip.

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All right. We'll take it in turns,
can't we?

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I'm sorry, mate.

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Last time I saw you, I
sort of overstepped the line...

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..as always.

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Dennis, I've really stopped caring.

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I've stopped caring what you or
Mum or Mark do.

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The only way I can stay fucking sane
is to stop caring.

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Well, that shouldn't be the way.

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No, it shouldn't.

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But I'm glad you're here, though.

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For her.

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If she knew what was going on,
then...

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..she'd be happy we were both here.

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You look good, Dan.

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You've done well.

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Hi. Um...

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I'm so sorry.

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She's gone.

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As often, we tend to find

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people cling on when loved ones
are around

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and then sort of slip off when
they're alone.

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We'll get her ready so you can
come say goodbyes, OK?

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I'm so sorry for your loss, darl.

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I am so sorry. She's, um...

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She's back.

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I honestly thought she was a goner,
but I just called that way too soon.

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Ah! Sack the ref.

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Ha-ha-ha. But, um... No, what did
happen there does indicate

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that she will probably go quite
soon. So finish your ciggie,

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no rush, and then definitely
come back. OK.

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HE EXHALES SHARPLY

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What you doing? I'm starting again.

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Oh, come on.
You've had a tough weekend.

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Jack, I don't care about this
dissertation.

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I don't care about successful women,
Grazia magazine bullshit.

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OK? I've got eight days so
I'm going to rewrite it so it's

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exactly what I fucking want.

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I cared about my very first topic,
that was my topic.

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I'm sick of caring about what
other people want from me.

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Is this about the dissertation or
is it about Danny?

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Sorry.

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Oh... Maybe don't delete that draft.

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You do you.

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You do you.

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She's heartbroken, bless her.

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I hate getting dumped.
It's like, "OK. Sorry,

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"why do you all of a sudden not care
if I live or die?"

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Yeah, but Corinne hasn't been
dumped-dumped.

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I think Danny loves her.
He's just scared.

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I'm worried he might be getting
a bit...manic again.

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Have you heard from him?

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No. I just know his nan's doing
not good.

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I just want to drive down there,
but I don't think he'd want that.

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Have Danny and poor Corinne spoke?

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Look, she's a smart girl, that one.
She'll be fine.

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Quite honestly,
considering her orientation,

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she should find a lady-partner.

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Yeah. I wish I was a lesbian.

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They just get so much more stuff
done.

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If you're bi with a woman,
it don't make you a lesbian.

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I once thought I was a lesbian.

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It was 1958.

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Her name was...

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..Patsy Troubador.

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A singer.

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We got drunk one night down
the palais.

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She tried to kiss me, but...

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..I pulled away.

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And thank God I did or else
I'd have ruined my family and

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home life and the destiny of all
of your lives.

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But I often think if I were to do it
all again...

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..maybe I'd have...

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...given Pat a chance.

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RADIO:
Hand in hand...

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Right. Who wants some sweet stuff?

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Nan wants some sweet muff by
the sounds of it.

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Shannon! Oh, come off it!

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Lovely, Annabell.

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You all right? Yeah, it's just...

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..Mark.

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Oh, my God. Is that...

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..two inside him?

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be the man...

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Oh, come here. Hey!

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Hey, it's all right. Hey.
Come here. Hey.

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Mate.

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Fancy a little'un?

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No.

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Absolutely not.
Come on, it'll shut soon anyway.

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I just fancy one.

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Let's just go back to Nan's,
all right?

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Sit and have a cup of tea
and just...be.

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Let's just have one. We'll just have
one and then we're off.

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No!

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Just come back with me, OK?

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And just do the normal fucking thing

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and we go through old photos
and we sit in the kitchen

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and we fucking chain smoke until
the fucking morning. Please.

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Dad...

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..please.

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Sorry, mate.

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Dad.

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You completely undermined me.

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Switching to a topic that
I said was niche

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and overly emotional for you,
preventing you from crafting

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a forward-facing academic commentary
about more immediate media

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policy reforms. Yeah.

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And it's really rather good.

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It's robust and concise

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and puts forward an engaging
argument about media interference

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in democratic referendums,
which, let's face it,

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is applicable as we approach
the upcoming Brexit vote.

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Thank you. But we won't Brexit.

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Oh, we're going to Brexit.
Scotland will stay in the UK

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and I think the next president of
the United States is

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going to that absolute
fuck-face cunt BLEEP Trump.

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LAUGHTER

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And how are you feeling?

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Hollow.

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Like I gave every single piece
of my heart to someone,

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constantly wishing it would
get better.

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He would get better.

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And I love him.

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I'm also angry.

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I just made a decision
to stay in London for him

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and I feel like I've stopped
myself progressing

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cos I wanted him to get better.

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Yes, I knew that.

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So I didn't retract your application.

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What?

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Yeah, I'm super-sorry for having
interfered,

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but I felt like you consistently told
me how much you loved him

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but also how much you loved
education.

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So I did not retract your
application.

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You have a provisional letter
of acceptance,

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and I was waiting till you got your
degree mark

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so we could talk about it.

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Right.

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And I spoke to some friends of mine
at Edinburgh

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and I'm pretty sure you're going
to be accepted into

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the Media Regulations masters,
especially after this thesis.

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Thank you.

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No, thank you.

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I think you're going to love
the new department head over there.

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Is it you?

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Yeah, it's me.

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Your formatting is all over
the place.

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There's one chapter in a completely
different font.

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Yeah. I thought that might cheer
the marker up,

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with all the depressing bits
about Aids.

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OK, well maybe let's not trivialise
the Aids crisis with a curly font.

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Other than that it's actually
very...good.

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Well done, Jack. Thanks.

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Now I need to ask you a favour. No.

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Well, you don't know what it is. No.

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It's Danny. OK, I'm listening.

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His nan's sick,
he broke up with Corinne

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and he hasn't answered any of my
calls for a week

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and the deadline is in two days.
I thought you could call him up

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and find out what his plans are
with the hand-in.

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And check he's OK.

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Yeah, of course.

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PHONE DINGS

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CHUCKLING

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PHONE DINGS


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Good luck with fixing your
formatting, Jack.

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Good luck to you also, Tim.

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PHONE RINGS

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Phew.

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Corinne!

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Tim is gay!

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Or bi.

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Or maybe straight and experimenting.

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But Tim has Grindr!

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"Dearest wee Jack, I'm off.
I can't do any more goodbyes.

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"I'm so proud of you for working
so hard,

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"and see you at graduation.

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"That's if you don't suddenly
right-royally fuck it all up.

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"Love you, Corinne."

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PHONE RINGS

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Hello, you! Hello, mate.

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Sorry I haven't text.
Just had a lot on.

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No, no, no. Don't worry.
How are you?

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I've been better.
But no, I'm doing OK.

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Good.

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Good.

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How's your nan?

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She's gone.

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Oh...

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Oh, Danny. I'm so sorry.

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Don't you get upset. No, no...

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I'm just sad for you. I...

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I miss you, mate.

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Yeah, I miss you, too.

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How's Corinne?

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Yeah, she's handed in and gone.
It's weird.

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How are you, though?
Do you want me to come down?

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Me and Mum could...? No. No? No.

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Honestly, I'm fine.

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What about the funeral?
We can come down for support.

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It's done.

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I cremated her this morning.

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Just me.

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Look I need to come pick up
my stuff.

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Yeah. Yeah, course.

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I can help you pack.

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What you going to do about uni work?

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Well, Tim phoned. Apparently I can
get mitigating circumstances,

264
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get a three-month extension so...

265
00:17:51,261 --> 00:17:53,741
Wow, so you answered to Tim
but not me.

266
00:17:55,501 --> 00:17:57,461
That's great, mate.

267
00:17:57,501 --> 00:17:59,061
I can help you with that as well.

268
00:18:00,621 --> 00:18:02,021
And, Danny...

269
00:18:03,421 --> 00:18:06,941
..you know you're always welcome to
stay with me and Mum.

270
00:18:06,981 --> 00:18:08,741
You know that. Yeah, I know.

271
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I need to start carving out my life
back down here, though.

272
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Yeah. Look, I'll be up Wednesday

273
00:18:16,261 --> 00:18:19,021
so I can come help you
hand your dissertation in, yeah?

274
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Does that sound cool?

275
00:18:20,901 --> 00:18:22,581
Yeah, yeah. It sounds good.

276
00:18:27,741 --> 00:18:28,981
I love you, mate.

277
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You too, mate.

278
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283
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PHONE DINGS

284
00:19:15,261 --> 00:19:18,061
Ugh. Jesus Christ, Andrew Shuman.

285
00:19:18,101 --> 00:19:22,181
In my mind I knew, there could be no
better sex than shagging

286
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the lad who picked on you at school.

287
00:19:27,501 --> 00:19:29,661
Hey, man. Hey, hey, hey.

288
00:19:30,941 --> 00:19:34,981
I just want to make a long-time
coming apology to you.

289
00:19:35,021 --> 00:19:36,661
Oh, right.

290
00:19:36,701 --> 00:19:40,061
Like, I bullied you bad.

291
00:19:40,101 --> 00:19:43,061
Oh, well, you weren't nice,
but I wasn't bullied. No.

292
00:19:44,941 --> 00:19:47,261
No, I really bullied you.

293
00:19:49,581 --> 00:19:53,901
And it was cos you were gay.
Well, I wasn't out. And I was gay.

294
00:19:57,061 --> 00:19:59,861
So I just want to use this
opportunity to say...

295
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..I'm sorry.

296
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OK.

297
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I'm sorry.

298
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OK.

299
00:20:17,461 --> 00:20:19,341
Ugh. Fuck's sake.

300
00:20:19,381 --> 00:20:21,861
Were you filming that?! Yes.

301
00:20:21,901 --> 00:20:24,221
I'm a content creator.

302
00:20:25,341 --> 00:20:28,141
This was supposed to be a big
emotional moment where you

303
00:20:28,181 --> 00:20:31,061
forgave me and I set up we had
a romantic connection

304
00:20:31,101 --> 00:20:34,221
and that ultimately, now,
since coming out

305
00:20:34,261 --> 00:20:36,741
and accepting myself,
I am a good person.

306
00:20:36,781 --> 00:20:39,181
Yeah, right. Can you not?

307
00:20:39,221 --> 00:20:42,821
Well, it would just make great
YouTube numbers.

308
00:20:42,861 --> 00:20:44,861
Yeah, no.

309
00:20:44,901 --> 00:20:46,581
I'd just rather fuck.

310
00:20:50,101 --> 00:20:52,341
Ugh! Come on, mate,

311
00:20:52,381 --> 00:20:56,621
my YouTube confessionals get me 5K
a pop. Ah, shush, Andrew Shuman.

312
00:20:56,661 --> 00:21:00,461
Is that Alison Hammond? Yeah.

313
00:21:00,501 --> 00:21:03,461
So I just made love with
the guy who I bullied at school.

314
00:21:03,501 --> 00:21:06,581
But it has helped me in my
queer journey...

315
00:21:11,181 --> 00:21:14,461
Was that your shag that just vlogged
his way out of here?

316
00:21:14,501 --> 00:21:16,181
Yep.

317
00:21:16,221 --> 00:21:18,141
You're naked under here, aren't you?

318
00:21:18,181 --> 00:21:20,141
Yeah. OK.

319
00:21:23,141 --> 00:21:25,501
Come on.
Let's get you in some clothes

320
00:21:25,541 --> 00:21:27,501
and hand this dissertation in, yeah?

321
00:21:29,141 --> 00:21:32,621
There he is. Oh! Ha-ha-ha!

322
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323
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324
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325
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326
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It'll be you next.
We'll get you through.

327
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328
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329
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330
00:21:53,541 --> 00:21:56,221
Look, maybe stay with us for a bit.

331
00:21:56,261 --> 00:21:59,301
No. Honestly, I can't. I got loads
of shit to sort out in Margate so...

332
00:21:59,341 --> 00:22:00,941
Well, I'll come down this weekend.

333
00:22:00,981 --> 00:22:02,581
No, no, it's just...

334
00:22:03,661 --> 00:22:06,981
I'll be all right, OK? Well, this
summer, I'll come down loads.

335
00:22:07,021 --> 00:22:10,181
I'll get the train down to Margate
and we can speak all the time

336
00:22:10,221 --> 00:22:12,981
and I can help you with your
dissertation.

337
00:22:13,021 --> 00:22:15,781


338
00:22:15,821 --> 00:22:19,301
I kept trying to make plans
with you...

339
00:22:19,341 --> 00:22:21,421
I'll see you soon.

340
00:22:21,461 --> 00:22:23,381


341
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342
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343
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Danny!

344
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345
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346
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347
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348
00:22:40,581 --> 00:22:43,221
..and you just didn't seem to
want to make them.

349
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350
00:22:45,621 --> 00:22:47,981
Surprise! Surprise!
Surprise! Surprise!

351
00:22:49,381 --> 00:22:50,981
So we both left uni...

352
00:22:52,261 --> 00:22:55,541
..to go back to
very different homes.

353
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354
00:22:58,021 --> 00:23:01,461
Sorry to hear about Iris, love.
Thanks.

355
00:23:01,501 --> 00:23:03,581
And your cousin.

356
00:23:03,621 --> 00:23:05,141
Shit, mate.

357
00:23:05,181 --> 00:23:07,101
What?

358
00:23:07,141 --> 00:23:10,301
Mark. What about Mark?

359
00:23:10,341 --> 00:23:11,741
In?

360
00:23:18,821 --> 00:23:22,421
Since we last spoke, I've been online

361
00:23:22,461 --> 00:23:28,021
and I've found out all
the details about Patsy Troubador.

362
00:23:32,181 --> 00:23:36,741
That's her address
and she still lives locally.

363
00:23:38,181 --> 00:23:41,861
Maybe we can reach out,
see if you can meet again.

364
00:23:43,221 --> 00:23:49,701
Cos I've been feeling like me
existing means you haven't been able

365
00:23:49,741 --> 00:23:53,541
to explore your queer,
authentic self.

366
00:23:58,341 --> 00:24:01,781
Oh, for fuck's sake.

367
00:24:01,821 --> 00:24:04,141
Turn that fucking off!

368
00:24:04,181 --> 00:24:07,221
I'm not fucking content!

369
00:24:07,261 --> 00:24:10,421
"Ooh! Me hashtag nan's
a hashtag lesbian."

370
00:24:10,461 --> 00:24:13,381
You fucking gay boys online.

371
00:24:13,421 --> 00:24:15,941
You're gay, get over it.

372
00:24:15,981 --> 00:24:16,981
Sorry, Nan.

373
00:24:18,181 --> 00:24:20,061
One thing I do want to say, though.

374
00:24:23,061 --> 00:24:25,061
I am very proud of you.

375
00:24:25,101 --> 00:24:27,581
All I wanted to do was
to study more and I couldn't.

376
00:24:32,421 --> 00:24:33,621
You've done very well.

377
00:24:35,061 --> 00:24:36,461
Thanks, Nan.

378
00:24:41,981 --> 00:24:45,061
Now get out in the real world and
get a proper fucking job.

379
00:24:56,141 --> 00:24:58,421
I think you blamed yourself for Mark.

380
00:24:59,981 --> 00:25:04,101
Like, maybe it wouldn't have happened
if you hadn't been preoccupied

381
00:25:04,141 --> 00:25:07,221
with uni. And all of us in London.

382
00:25:08,741 --> 00:25:11,381
And then you found yourself back
in Margate anyway.

383
00:25:12,981 --> 00:25:15,701
And I don't think any of us quite
realised

384
00:25:15,741 --> 00:25:17,661
just how lonely you'd become.

385
00:25:19,941 --> 00:25:21,501
And I felt lonely...

386
00:25:22,901 --> 00:25:26,221
..even though downstairs at mine was
full of family.

387
00:25:27,701 --> 00:25:31,861
I don't think you ever realised you
were only older male figure

388
00:25:31,901 --> 00:25:34,821
I loved left in my life.

389
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